If someone done a Travel, than he can tell something about. Me too, but i was not travelling to recover myself, no i was going back to Berlin, to see my Family and Friends. Of Course it's nice and agreeable to see everybody again, just with the result that you leave this well-know world in two weeks again. I don't mean it in a negative way, it's just a easy pleasant melancholical fact.
Particularly the first three days, in Berlin, i was still surrounded from the everyday life of Budapest. You walk around the streets und you got the feeling that the Surrounding is still in a hungarian-speaking style. Partial, it's a funny and completely new Impression. Then you step into a shop, and you expecting the typical hungarian mentality from the salespersons and you realizing very fast, that you are stuck in the influenced strict all-day „Germania“. In the begining you see it with a smile, but after few similiar situations you are already taken from these habits. You talking and acting and expecting everything, like that this life in Budapest never happened. This hurts myself a little bit.
Then it feels good to be caught by Family and Friends, who are also acting with their usual habits, just with the difference that this is it why you are came back. The wellknown city is like it used to be, there is not to win anything, but the people are it, who giving you back the life you didn't had for a half year. And There it shows, that you living actually two lifes, because i realised in these two weeks that i changed myself in Budapest, my feelings and my behaviors are not the same anymore.
Somehow it is seems logical that you are discover these things in a place where you feeling home, only through it, you beginn reflecting the new experience and understanding it right.
There was the one or another moment where i said to myself: „Damn, you got everything what you need here, so why i have to go back to the, now a little bit, unknown foreign place. But his is it what's keeping me on the road, the unknown.
Because of this i'm happy to be back in Budapest, the momentary surroundings here is,at this time, great. Everything appears different, the sun, the air, my mind, simply everything!
Its foreseeable, but also intressting to feel who you missed and with who you are still connected and, also have to write this, wich one mean something to you.
These Weeks haven't be as it used to be. I was on a wedding from friends, met a guy from the pre-departure seminar who told me about his experience in France, and i was at a Barbecue from my family.
On the way home to Hungary i asked myself, how long it could be, to find my way back to the hungarian habits. This is a very fast told story; out of the train-noticed the hungarian language-back to the flat-meet my roomfellows-arrived; that's it!
Altogether, i can say i felt it like a salvation to be back again here, than to pushing for two weeks into the old knowing things.
So for me it's clear that i would like to stay here after the EVS-Time, i just don't know for how long.
Matthias
